Fap first and think later
6 05 2008This is an addition to an entry I had posted somewhere else on Saturday, May 03, 2008 with the title “Odd Feelings”. I apologize if this entry is a little more sober, serious and mature than what I normally seem to write. I honestly was unsure if this entry was more anime or more personal blog. I opted for anime since for now I find myself more grounded on the fantasy side.
Now, some of you might be wondering what is with my sudden interest in traps, and as much as you might think I’m trolling I think I honestly feel the way I feel. I’ve decided to convert to Kurogane’s way of thinking to try and ease this uneasiness. Although, I kind of want everyone to know too oddly enough. If I could without looking strange, I’d shout outside my window this instant saying, “I like traps!” I’ve come to the point that I’m cherishing this feeling much like the time I became a Yukarin Fanboy.
I honestly blame anime, and as much as real traps are such an eyesore (READ: ugly) anime ones can be hot. Now, I can see why female anime fans like yaoi because it is hot. Well, at least when one of them is dressed like a female.
Um, for the first time in my life I am reevaluating my sexual orientation. It’s really weird, but I’ve been finding myself liking traps. Like REALLY liking traps. Just something about guys dressed as women is hot? I’ll save you the details because I find myself a little embarrassed about it myself. Although, rest assured it’s not real, and just drawn pictures of which I am interested in. Although, it is a little strange regardless because it’s guys and I’m a guy. Does this make me homosexual? Who knows it could move to real stuff eventually… I’m juggling in my mind about what ifs and relationships because I’m now kind of open to the idea now where before I was kind of indifferent.
It’s not like I woke up this morning and was like I think I’m homosexual today. I was kinda hung over and was woken up at 5am due to some loud partying from the dorm across from me. So, I just decided to browse 7chan. Clicked on a trap thread and I’m like, “Oh wow this is pretty hot.” followed by “Wait a minute… This seems wrong.” But I still went with it looking at the various links and offered doujins. I also kind of blame Moyashimon because Kei is damn hot and makes me a little jealous of Tadayasu to be around him. Ah, what am I saying! /(>_<)\
I kind of find myself going into that love is love mindset. Who cares what gender you are as long as you love each other? DAMN YOU CLAMP!
Like fantasy is fantasy and reality is reality and I consider everything with a .jpg at the end just a part of fantasy and I make sure to NEVER have the TWO cross EVER AGAIN. Also, real traps are ugly. Not like I’ve… Seen any images mind you!! At least drawn it looks moe.
On the other hand, I’m probably just blowing this out of proportion and it was bound to happen since it kinda stems off from the futanari genre. Weird how everything is connected like that if you’ve ever seen that weird graph floating around.
Ugh, I am such a walking wreck of messed up fetishes. Don’t even get me started. I partly blame anime for most of them. Glasses, doll joints, futanari, and now traps! Just to list a few.
Still, what a troublesome feeling that needs to be sorted out.
Dude, that’s nothing.
Also everyone is gay for Jun. EVERYONE. No exceptions.
…wait, doll joints and boat lights that’s how you roll?
LOL
Fap first, worry later.
Don’t worry about it, 2D and 3D are totally different dimensions.
Honestly though, I’m more for the character design and theme overall than the supposed gender. They could suddenly reveal that <insert-favourite-character> is actually male, and I still will continue to like her.
Well, not all real life trap are ugly.
Look here:
http://www.riuva.com/?p=1065
What Kurogane said. I don’t see anything bad about them. :P
Then you guys are far more open minded than other people I hang around.
Kurogane@ It’s kinda weird though. I don’t really like female versions of characters like Kyonko or what not.
Alec m@ Kills self.
Homosexual and heterosexual are merely two extremes in the transitive bisexual spectrum, neither of which define a person.
*note I sent you a mail using the xanga wizard- do you not check that mail anymore?* ps. it was using my new email th3.g1vr- I have I bad habit of constantly switching…
I have just finished going through this same phase, and with all the same reasons…”gender doesn’t matter with love”- even now I agree with that philosophy…also it was a distinct possibility that my resistance to homosexuality was only due to my upbringing…
I ended up going to some extremes to prove to myself that I was not homosexual, and in the end it turned out that I was not- so I think based on the similarity of experience I can confidently tell you it’s just a phase- so don’t worry about it.
but even then, as long as you like Yukarin you won’t ever be gay- worst case scenario bisexual :-)
In accordance to what R said, a friend once told me that everyone is gay to some degree. It depends on the relative release of hormones (testosterone, estrogen etc.) in your body. The main point is that, regardless of what sexual orientation you are, the most important thing is to accept yourself. I’m glad you’re generating some discussion about this issue, rather than just dismissing it as unimportant.
Crud. I might be double posting with nothing written in the 1st post. aeenhow…
Ha! Ha! Dont’ get strung up on the question too much. It’s not like Regis Philman is asking for your “final answer!” Hmmm. Traps. Futanari. Good stuff. I’ve spent quite a bit of time ruminating on sexually inverting myself to see how it would feel from the “other side.” Definitely on the fantasy list right behind 5 chijo’s attacking me at once. Futanari definitely works for me in that regard… (i know what a pneis feels like; wish I knew what a vgaina feels like; waitasecond, that girl has an outy!; I can relate to her!; this is so making it hot) which at one time had me wonder if I’m gay. But no. In retrospect, personal gratification completely trumped everything else, actual pneis in my face wasn’t what I was actually lookin for…
In short, “fap first. worry later.”
Asuka@ Hmm. Interesting.